Thursday, December 29, 2005

work at converse

im currently working at converse:) running between bugis og albert n takashimaya..been going to og albert more..yes og-->aunties favourite shopping place.haha..seen lots of aunties.buying shirts for their sons..talking to me..got 1 say she one look n knew im 16yrs old.dumb.but nvm!at least i knw i look young:) haha..okay den so peeps!drop by og albert if u have time:) though i doubt anybody will have time since sch is starting..

so meanwhile, wish all of u the best in ur schooling while i countinue slogging with my work(my poor leggs)..

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Sunday, December 25, 2005

a cold night:)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!:) MAY EVERYBODY WISHES COME TRUE:)

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Tuesday, December 20, 2005

sad..damn sad..sad

i have to blog..i have to vent all my feelings out..i duno wad else can i vent out on..ur departure really hit me hard..

even though we knew each other for only a year n 4 months(thats what you said), its like we had known each other for years..the way we met each other is so special that i couldnt believe it..

i remembered the day we knew each other n 1st smses....leslie asked you out for lunch the next day with jiawei n wanteng at arnd 5pm+ i tink..he asked me along as well..his hp got no more batt..n he used mine hp to msged u..n who knows that he actually forgot to tell u the time to meet for the lunch..n at arnd 10pm..u msged me..n said "im leslie's fren, blah blah"..to ask me bout the time..n we msged n msged..n unknowingly msged till 2+am..n i rmb i was watching real madrid soccer match at that time..yah n it all started from there..if u had nt msged me on that day..i most probably wouldnt had ask for ur number the next day..n this kind of acquintance is so special..its like fate brought us together to be frens..n who knows frens will lead till what now is happening..

n from then on we chatted in msn n msg..its like the feeling was there to talk..we were nt short of topics to talk on..n never was..

on 1 of the days of december 2004..b4 u went back to malaysia at that holidays..u came online..i chatted with u..and just at once..i could feel that ur feeling down, feeling sad..the feeling juz come this way..n quite much thinking..u told me that ur leaving for malaysia nxt year which is 2005..after olevels..at that time i was quite shocked..because we knew each other for only such a short period n my feeling at that time was that..im gonna lose a real great friend...from that point of time, i knew what im gonna face..the prospect of losing u soon..real soon..

n till 1 day i called you..was our 1st time chatting on the phone..chat quite alot..though we did stop at sometime..since then i had called you more times den ever..where we only stick to msg n msn...the feeling you gave me was special..special in a way that i had never felf this way before..everytime you went back to malaysia during the holidays, a surge of loneliness runs within me..even though usually it was only for 1 week, it was like im without a fren close to me..an important 1..and everytime i hear ur voice when u come back my spirits juz almost so quickly liven up..and when ur going to chiangmai for the field trip..it was two weeks..two weeks of loneliness..compared to 1week?..terrible..and i was looking forward to ur return from chiangmai at that time..but my eagerness to hear ur voice n msg u was all but broken apart after seeing ur msg..u said that u wun be using ur hp tat often anymore because u feel that u can live without it..i was sad of course..it meant that we wun be talking n msging as often..n im nt even in a mood to chat to you online..and yea i actually ignore you..for almost a month..i cant believe myself i was doing that..it was hard n heartbreaking..n when you talked to me one day online..i juz felt relieved..relieved that we are talking again..

from then on, we from gd frens became close frens n v gd frens..but..this was not what it turns out to be..as days went..my feelings became to change..i myself had no idea when it started to change..frm v gd frens feelings..developed into ever strong feelings..feelings for you..i knw you wun wan to be seeing this if ur reading..but i juz cant help it..i must say..i knew what im facing when i started to have this feeling..the prospect of you leaving..i was more than prepared for this..

when i let u know of my feelings when u come back that 1 week..i was like oh shit..this was not what i want..din intend to tell u..but..i had no choice..because of what u said to me..hope u understand..for all the words u said to me i did remember..i know what im doing n facing

when you finally left on sunday..it was like im controlling myself not to cry..not to cry..not to cry..these words filled my head..because i know that if i cry in front of u..u'd be sad..i shldnt be saying this..but yah..i cried hard..after u left..on the taxi..once u waved goodbye to me for the very last time n got on the taxi..n i waved back..tears started to flow..i juz couldnt control..

for this time i had never been so weak before..now my body is like half dead..nt enough strength to carry on walking..but i know i have to keep on walking..i know that u trust that i will be able to stand up from this setback n lead a new life..i will..i wun misplaced ur trust..but i will need some time..but for how long i wun knw..i juz knw that i have to stand up n be the usual n normal me as soon as possible..for i knw if u see ur friends are all happy, u will be happy as well..i knw ur suffering more than twice compared to us..but we trust u as well..u'll be able to pull through this period..n as for me..i juz felt like crying out loud nw..but i cant..xiang ku dan shi ku bu chu lai..my heart is crying..n mayb cry too much, din pump out enough blood for my body, n thus made me felt so weak..yes im crapping again..but quite true in a sense..

yah n i wan everybody to knw..especially you..yes you..that no 1 can replace you..all your wadever words, laughter,voice, and times with u will forever be with me..n i will stand up again.

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Saturday, December 17, 2005

boredom

juz 1 more day..i dread tml..really..

nxt week will be start of a new life with new ideas n new things will cum my way..however new the life will be..i will keep to my promise n wait..no matter how long it is..

nxt week will be weird..sian?..guess i have to find things to do to keep myself occupied..wad can i do really..christmas cuming up..if i find a job nw it wld be so weird if i take a leave so soon..but i guess finding a job nw is the best solution to keep myself preoccupied..

anyway my hse had had scv installed!:):).no more need to go frens hse to watch soccer:).but i'd still go..to meet up with frens of course..especially--->> World Cup:) haha

if anybody feel my this post is weird..i can understand:)

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Sunday, December 11, 2005

soon..

in the span of juz two or three days..n quite a few things had happen..quite fast huh?..yea i tink so..juz bought my mp3 player:) zen neeon:)..im satisfied with a zen neeon..what matters is the ability to play music.nt the appearance of the mp3 player..so neeon is the rite 1 for me:)

ytd saturday, 10 december 2005, was a get together btwn us er.ok lets say..guy frens..haha..gt me harry fab zhili jiawei dingzhi yongzhen n leslie..all of us went to leslie hse to chat..some stayed over some went back hm at arnd 12 becoz they gt work..it was fun to get together..even if it was awhile or very long.nowadays quite hard to have times like this already..so hope we can have more:)..

as for other things that happen i shall nt say

anywayy..i was hoping to gather many frens as possible for a christmas eve gathering..n we can all countdown to christmas!:) hohoho~..mite be going orchard to celebrate christmas:) for eg. starbucks? or c gt wad suggestions lar..if ur interested n have any suggestions.please put in ur name at the tagboard so as to notify me:)

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Friday, December 09, 2005

mp3 player

while i thanks kai hiong for dedicating 1 of his post to me in his blog..i shall dedicate this post back to kai hiong!

a scolding post here..haha.last minute den tell me u nt going to stay over!?!i had everything ready liao loh.stupid lar..pangseh me.............................i dun care man..u owe me 1..a big christmas present..i guess im in a position to demand a gd present rite kaihiong?haha..im nt a demanding person juz some bars of hershey cookies n cream will do the trick:)haha..

yea thats rite..im nt staying over at the creative today afterall..will be buying mp3 player tml..along with zhili..still to decide which to buy but i'd be going to creative later at 10pm to check whether the star buy gt anybody queuing..hope only gt a few ppl.n tml rush down there at 6am to queue:) haha..pray hardd..reall harddd

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Thursday, December 08, 2005

damn

yea damn..damn..manutd out of europe..disappointing performance=disappointing result..nvm..at least they can concentrate on the domestic competitions..lets lust hope they will bounce back from this setback soon..

nw im really finding it hard to get myself preoccupied..nothing for me to do really..except for playing football manager..but i cant possibly sit in front of com n play fm the whole day...wanted to go find job..but i already asked a few ppl to be on the lookout for jobs..so hope it'd work..

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Wednesday, December 07, 2005

weird n sian

i dun like this feeling.....feeling weird n sian nw..is there any cure to this feeling?..doubt so..for nw at least

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Monday, December 05, 2005

mini shopping spree

woh im now on a mini shopping spree:) today juz bought a addidas predator 10+ shoes..cost me 80 bucks..n this weekend im going for the creative fest..going to buy a mp3 player:) its either zen neeon or zen microphoto for me..zen neeon is 1gb which i tink is enough for me..whereas zen microphoto is 8gb..which i tink is too big lar..well my heart is more on zen neeon even though its nt very nice..but i think is gd enough for me..

anyways im still jobless:(..ive been searching for a job for days but to no avail..if theres any kind soul who hav any lobang pls recommend me okay?haha.im desperate for a job nw.since im nt going for the 3months jc..i need a job!!!n den i can go a major shopping spree rather den a mini 1:(.i also wan a d600 samsung phone..my god.i realise i gt so many times to buy..n christmas is coming as well..presents hav to be bought n pockets have to be emptied..well juz gotta prepare myself for the day to come..n im gonna c the christmas lightings at orchard as well..heard that the lightings at esplanade is damn nice.do have a look if ur going there..

oh n recently i juz liked some of jay chou's songs which should be a surprise considering that i hate his songs usually..except for some though like jie kou n anjing..nw i add some to those exception songs of his..these includes: shan hu hai, ye qu, feng n hei se mao yi..i like shan hu hai the most..been listening to it most of the time..the rest are..still..okay?.haha..anyways heres the photo of the zen neeon..i tink the 1st impression will be: erm its quite ugly u knw?

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Friday, December 02, 2005

start of a new journey

the chalet is over..all of us had gone separate ways..which is a sad thing..though we will still meet up regularly..it may nv be the same again..

hmm ok i shall summarise the chalet..everyday was a tiring day..especially for me..i can say that the chalet made me damn tired..juz by organising is tiring enough..actual?die man..all the stuffs we played are fun though..especially the PES5 on the ps2..haha..at 1st we thought that ps2 is unplayable because theres only 1 plug there..so we got a three pin plug..n arnd 3am at nite..thats the 1st time ive ever marinate a chicken..n my 1st time is actually in the middle of the night..dumb.haha..okay i can say my marianting of the chicken=failure..the next day during the bbq..most said the chicken no taste 1..well i accept that.since its my 1st time marinating..i dun really knw need to put how much seasoning..at least its edible..wun be able to poison ur..haha..harry was there to help me massage the chickens..massaging the chicken was fun..harry n vio tink likewise i guess..the slimy chicken?haha..n the nxt day was to the escape:) haha..it was fun.but nt as scary as i was b4..since ive been there quite a few times..no kick lah..haha..times square at KL, M'sia is much scarier..the indoor roller coaster in there..juz by thinking of it makes me scared..im immune to escape already..n at nite its the bbq..can say its not very successful..but at least its better den last time..ms goh was there to join us at nite:)..her english..man..damn good n nice to hear..pleasing to the ears?.yah..n at nite i slept 10 hrs..well its the 1st time ive ever slept so long during a chalet..a nice change to my usual chalet..gd 1:)..n according to those who din slp..i din some obscence stuffs while im slping...im innocent ok?innocent!..im slping alrite..n i was aslp so soundly that what they did to me i dun even knw..so im innocent..n thats abt all for the chalet..

i dread tml..really v dread..i juz hope tml will nv come..but life muz go on..

ytd went to find a job..still duno whether im selected..but along with leslie n aileen..we rejected a job!haha..that job was spastic lar..in the newspaper the advertisement was looking for admin staffs..but when we go there?they told us..marketing sales..hell lar?its not worthwhile working this..well we are going to look for a job again today..so wish me luck:)

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