Thursday, August 31, 2006

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ytd had a gd dream. i dreamt of you. dreamt of you coming back from malaysia and coming to pjc to visit me. i saw you when im going to the canteen and immediately run towards you and give you a big and tight hug, not wanting to let you go again.
but when i woke up. its all too gd to be true. just a dream.
after that i tot for awhile. and i realised that a few days later will be the day i know you. i have got no idea is when. because i couldnt remember. if im not wrong it should be 11sept. whatever the date is, i know the day is coming soon.blah. this got no link with my dream though. i also duno y will dream of you ytd. it just comes so naturally that i can rmb this dream so clearly that i can blog this down. but its all not real.
i duno how often you read my blog, but if you are reading this, i just wan you to know that i miss you alot..
just a 'miss' word is not able to sum up my feelings. i miss your smile, your laughter, our long chats. our craps. ur face..theres so many that i miss everything about you.

i dun care whether you are attached anot. i just want you back here in singapore. but i just have the feeling that you are not attached even though others told me likewise. somehow the feeling i get when talking to you is no that. everything can wait till you come back den settle.for now,

please..come back soon..

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Monday, August 28, 2006

When You Believe by Mariah Carey n Whitney Houston

Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
And our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understand
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who know what miracle
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
And now I am standing here
My heart's so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who know what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see you way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near

i post this b4 and i decided to post this again. i still find this song very meaningful. those who attended the adam khoo workshop will know. but even if u din attend, read the lyrics carefully and u will know y. miracles can be acheived when you believe in it, dun give up hope so easily or so soon. one thing i always mention to my friends. but not recently---> when you chose the path that you want to take. nv regret. because thats what u chose. instead of regretting, make the most out of it. work towards ur goal, what u have in mind, work towards them. the idea is there but not knowing how to carry out. giving up is the path to failure. perservering is the path to success. dun let obstacles down u please.
i wan to see happy faces around.

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Sunday, August 27, 2006

not the end

things around me is in quite a mess now. some given up hope. some pondering. some trying hard to battle back.
some may say that im putting too much on myself. yea thats true on the outside. but on my point of view, i would say that i have come to know of too many things. too many until my brain is running out of solution.
i have studies to cope with and with all these problems piling up and appearing, is hard. problems that are not on me, yet i have to act. because i cant possibly sit there and do nothing. that will be irresponsible of me. or thats just not me. knowing but nt acting is not gd lah. aiya duno how to put in words.but i duno what to do abt all this. some mite say that im caring too much, that these problems are not my problems. but i feel that these problems somehow is my problems. i take them on my stride. y? because u all are my frens. 2 sides are both my beloved in pjc. saddening to see things turn out this way.
but still. i wun give up hope. its not the end. definitely not. promos or problems, wun give up. giving up without even trying is failure. absolute failure. im not giving up hope. will u all give up?..because of all these.n give up halfway.because of some n give up entire. is it worth it? passion gone? where were all the promising things at the start?.please. do some reflection. re-find all of these. giving up like this is not worthwhile. y not try to solve them instead of giving up?. its understood that solving will be that damn difficult. but still we have to try. just like doing maths sum. if its v difficult, do we not try to solve it? no we dun. we try n try until we can. we dun give up halfway and say forget it. we stand up and face all these obstacles strongly. if these obstacles prove so heavy to be a stumbling block, i bet with u that u cant get past any obstacles. stand up and be a man. be a real 1.

will further post on this tml. quite late nw..

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Sunday, August 20, 2006

what a start!

the best possible start for manutd opening game of the season
a 5-1 win against a helpless fulham:), woots
a rampaging red devils is what is needed, with goals from saha, rooney(2), ronaldo and an own goal by ian pearce. entertaining football. goal here goal there goal everywhere, with a 8-0 scoreline threatening to happen everytime. scholes was unlucky nt to score there, hit the post with a fierce shot. and evra perform v well.ferdinand unlucky to concede a goal with the shot deflected off him. overall a very gd team performance.yeah! glory glory manutd!!!

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Saturday, August 19, 2006

weekend nights:)

**Added--> woots. liverpool and arsenal only gt a draw for their opening match:) perfect results for manutd fans:)yeah

After a few months without EPL action, today will be the return of it. English Premier League is back:). no more boredom on weekend nights. it will soccer entertainment and watching my fav club-Manchester United in action. woots:)


yeah manutd will win the epl:) they rocks and they are hungry for success. damn the chelsea and win the epl. whack them all.

lol anyway the burger king pic is taken in the mrt. thanx to weilin who took it for me:).haha. so do check the pic out when u take mrt.

and liverpool is losing to sheffield united now by 1-0 to sheff utd. lousy lah liverpool. still gt about 30mins to go. if they dun even win ah. they can go die and forget abt winning epl lo. fancy liverpool losing to sheff utd. aww.

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Thursday, August 10, 2006

balance well = success

hmm its never too late to blog on national day eve. yea so had the sch celeration of national day on tuesday, 8th august. the performances were ok i guess. think the eye-catching ones were the dances. both gals n guys. the guys break dance were better though. gals were just ok. n ok. yah. so come the national day quiz. me, weiliang, sebas, chinyang, chaoyi and martin were playing the "i say" game. with the dare--being going up on stage to answer one of the question. we din knw that the balloon had to be burst to obtain the slip of paper though. so we just tore the balloon apart instead of bursting it. well i guess we din hear the rules carefully as we were playing the game. and weiliang lost the game and had to go answer a question. so he tore the balloon instead of bursting it. and i did call him to dun care, just go up. until mr tong(who was sitting on a chair beside us) told us that we have to burst it and to abide to the rules. and question our integrity. and yea so we decided to burst it. and well, weiliang did answer a difficult question but too bad!. lols wrong answer.haha. then after that had the marathon of national day songs. the atmosphere was great. S10 getting together to sing, dance and sway together. nice one:) den after that a taupok on weiliang right at the area we occupied. lols. suay lah he. first time get taupoked by us. haha. a long awaited 1.
den after that. we were dismissed. den mr tong wan to see me. initially thought was about the taupokking. instead was about the balloon incident. saying i wasnt a leader there, rather i was being lead by them. but we really duno that we have to burst the balloon. so well. if theres a fault in me, it for sure dun lie in me urging weiliang up on stage. rather the fault lies in me nt listening to the rules carefully. but well. the taupok mayb is wrong. but we were just having fun together as a bunch of friends. dun expect me to change this aspect. because im still a fren to my classmates. i for sure dunwan to be restricted by being a councillor. if i change just because im a councillor, ha. tats just nt me. i want to be a gd councillor and also a gd fren. for that to happen, the first is to be myself 1st. the same applies to everyone. no point faking it. express urself freely is the best way to enjoy life. being restricted is the worst possible feeling.

ok enough bout tat. shall move on now to the outing to queensway with 7th. yup. went there with the thought of buying a new pair of shoes in mind. but end up with no shoes bought. lol. y? because theres no size for me. blah. omg lah. its damn hard to find my size. size 11. so many shops dun have. and i wanted to buy the tiempo gold. but. damn. no stocks and there wun be anymore. sad lah. its so nice. n i want to try tiempo. blah. too bad. i shall just stick with my absolute for now.plus i like my absolute. love to use them to play soccer. the feeling is there:). end up only shee kwang gt buy shoes. haha. too bad lah. i cant find mine.
yup den we proceeded to watch fireworks. on the way there. weilin desiree lingfang and joreen are just so curious bout my past. well told them from the back to the front. only said halfway though. but i guess they roughly know already lah. go read my archives can liao. slowly find loh..its rather sad to think of the past. but nvm. saying them out feels abit better den previous. haha.
den reach there. wahh..alot of people. den have to squeeze through the bridge at esplanade. wahlao. become roti prata liao lah. den also had body conditioning cause was sweating alot and my leg n hand muscleache.lol. cause i was videoing n taking photos during the fireworks display. well i must say the fireworks are v nice. but can be better lah. haha. the slow fireworks were interesting. quite cute.lol. they move damn slow lah. den the finale is the best. v nice. gt video down ah. will post when my laptop internet is ok.currently is spoilt. den after that comes the crucial part of the night. my class, S10 was also there.
gt 7th, S10 and sec sch frens.
desiree and me were there thinking go where? how? die lah.. very hard to choose. lol. had a hard time choosing.
end up we chose S10. because we with 7th the whole afternoon alr. its only right that we chose S10. as for me sec sch frens i din join them. sorry ah!.coz ur last min then call me go watch fireworks. class and council quite early ask. so sorry. will catch up with u all next time:).
i guess this is a problem for me. a blessed/gd problem. with S10, 7th and 4E4 in my heart. who to accompany?. this is a problem i have to find a solution to. its a matter of balancing well among them. time management?.mayb? haha. all of them matters to me. and seriously, its pretty hard to find time for all.its a dilemma tat i have nv face b4. in the past only gt 4E4. nw got 3. i guess im lucky to have them 3. n im sure sooner or later will be able to solve this problem:). somehow this problem is gd. a test for me to maintain these 3 relationship. woots.

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Sunday, August 06, 2006

My Day-4th August

this post mite be abit late. but nvm. was too tired to blog ytd at 1am. so nw blog is never too late:). yup. ytd was my birthday. fun. touched. happy and lastly. predictable. lolx. coz their acting skills nt gd enough lah. too bad that i saw through many acts. lol.

1st up for me is my classmates. 06S10 peeps!:). our 1st lesson was GP. and they sang bdae song for me. and they repeated it again coz Ms Soo nv sing. lol!. and after that she say "actually i do have chocolates in my cupboard" haha. and she gave the box of ferrero roche to me. i just share with classmates loh. haha. nice tcher there. after that went for a break. they din celebrate my bdae yet though. din tau pok me in canteen also. which was quite lucky. there alot of ppl can.will be malu 1. den went for physics lesson. and its when physics is over then they celebrate my bdae. in which they present me with a muffin (special thanx to martin n sebas who went to get it:). and a candle--which was so obvious that it was a relightable candle. lols. especially when i used it b4. haha but nvm. i wish 1 time, blow 1 time. then relight again, and wish again. total gt 4wishes. which was what i wanted. nvm lah ah. be abit greedy once a year wun die 1. and im sure that its the very 1st time in my whole life i wish with so much sincerity. in the past, nv tink of what to wish. den on the spot suka suka think of 1 and then...blowww. lol. nw times are different. this 4wishes are what i really hope they will come true. all the wishes are for the things i regard highest in my heart. yup. den after that is taupok by classmates. wahh.damn sad can. i gt taupok 3times. pain ahh...n martin duno how to taupok for nuts lah. taupok until his butt scraped my face. ahh. smelly..damn. lols. den found a jolin dvd in my bag. haha thanx ah weiliang:):) jolin is damn hot can:).woots.while other classmates din get a gift for me. i feel that its ok loh. its not the gift that matters to me. its the sincerity that matters to me. as long as ur sang me the bdae song. im v happy alr. even more so when ur sang so many times. and i really treasure the times spent with u all. i promise this to all of u.yea.love the class lots.:)

den in the afternoon. after gm. proceeded to council room for tok cok session. den its like i was walking towards the room. den i heard lingfang's LOUD voice--"ahh hancheng lai liao" n i can hear so clearly den i sprint to the room. caught in action. lols. so obvious they preparing the cake.and they dun let me in the room. blah. wan take something also canot. haha. den nvm. carried on with tok cok. den halfway thru. dear president weilin call huda, huimei, peggy and me out. saying she need to see us urgently. and at that point i duno that we are all the august babies until they say lah. lols. den "suddenly" the lights turn off. den i knw gt cake already den they still down there act saying lights spoil. lol. nvm lah. appreciate their efforts to confuse me. but to no avail.haha. den sang happy bday happybday. yeap. den they gave me a card by 7th. i must say its v nice lah. gd job weilin:) and all the bdae greetings by 7th:) appreciate all of them. touched by what some of u all say in the card after i read it on the way home. meaningful to me:)
and thanx to felicia for ur card n chocolates:) quite alot though. duh. nvm will finish them.:)
thanx to those who gave me the 6 bars of hersheys. chocolates again. i will be drowned by chocolates. lol. dun worry. i will finish all the chocolates that are filled with all of u's sincerity. yup.
thanx to huda for ur card:) i owe u 1. lol.
and last but not least. thanx to lingfang for ur sweets machine and card:) quite cute lah. lol.
really thanx to the whole 7th SC. love u all lots.

the above are ytd celebrations. shall talk abt today's one. went out with zhili, harry, jiaqian, fabian(left to watch superband), xuansheng(left to watch superband), aileen, weechong(joined us after movie) and jiawei to celebrate. went to eat the wanton noodle at the heeren, watch lakehouse and walk around orchard. had the usual fun times of crapping. and the full usage of eyepower spotting the things we always play. im sure ur know what i meant. hahaha. 8-1.yeap. lakehouse was a nice movie. i think its a nice sweet touching movie. been a long time since i last seen this type of movie. and its shows the power of letter writing. lol. im nt going to do that though. my writing nt power enough. write liao also no use. mayb next time in the future? haha. who knows what will happen. yeap and around 11pm. went to the coffee bean outside wheelock place. down there, harry n jiaqian bought a chocolate n cheese cake for me. yea touched again. 3rd cake in two days. lols. n 3times of making 4wishes in two days. guess the power of my wishes v high already. hahaha. come true pls!!. yeap and thats abt it for my bdae celebration.

be it 06S10, 7th SC or sec sch peeps. all of u are my friends. no high no low place in my heart.all of you are my supporting pillars when im down. likewise for you all as well. i will always be here to support u all when u all are down. and i really cherish n treasure all these friendships. all of you are my source of motivation tat nv fail to keep me going in my life. learning many stuffs from all of you. all of you played a part in my learning process to become a better person. been through ups and down with me. n im damn sure there will be more happy and sad times together. and these are the times to remember. to cherish. and i hope you all think the same as me too.:)

well my bday ends on a high note. even though it happened ytd night. at 2307. u msged me:). i was damn happy. even though my reply to you mite not sound like. but im just too happy to reply something decent. if ur reading this. yea thanx for ur msg:). really. i treasure u alot. n im here everyday. waiting for something to happen. be it good or bad. just want you to knw. i knw things that i arent supposed to know. but its ok. i knw this kind of thing will happen. i just hope that u will be happy. and as for me. dun worry. throughout this few years. i've learnt to take things in my stride. and im strong enough to hold on. wun break down so easily. im just gonna let things run naturally. if theres really a right one that come by. i will grab the chance. fang xin bah. i knw whats best for myself. im sure u knw i do. yea.

thats abt it for this post. abit long i guess. overall a happy birthday spent.:) love all my frens:) n u..

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